Rollercoaster of emotions time!

Yesterday's mood was one of pure, unadulterated anger. Overnight, this has turned into anxiety and sadness, including lack of sleep. 

I've been through my fair share of redundancies over the years. The worst one was when I was due to get married and the company I was working for decided it was going to downsize and move into deepest, darkest Essex from Kingston upon Thames. Having spent a not inconsiderable amount of money on the wedding and honeymoon (Bora Bora, then two weeks in New Zealand), it was too late to do anything. So I went and got married whilst unemployed. Went to one of the most expensive places on Earth—unemployed. Backpacked around one of the most beautiful countries on Earth—unemployed. If it weren't for savings, I'd be royally buggered.

Thanks to my cousin, I decided to pursue a career in VFX, and after a very good (but ultimately unsuccessful) meeting with Cinesite, I applied to MPC and got the job. Alas, I am not so fortunate to be in that  kind of financial position now (plus I'm now divorced and single - so only one income), and I'm waiting to hear on a variety of things from work to determine my best course of action. Meanwhile, my emotional state changes hourly, and it's not likely to stop doing that for some time.